Insecurities

When the little voice in your head that tells you you’re not good enough, the barrier of confidence seems impassable when you just can’t get past the voice.

I’ve always had an issue with self-confidence. It’s an insecurity of my brain–my ‘smarts’ if you will. Am I smart enough? Ugh this issue plagues me. Always seeking knowledge, never remembering it. 😕

It’s all untrue. I am a smarty pants, I just don’t think I am more often than not. My husband swears this insecurity of mine makes me better, because I fight for it that much harder. Hmmmmm…

I have to keep my confidence, I have a big meeting coming up. Where people have a fear of public speaking, I have an incredible fear of just being inarticulate and having a mistake in view for all from the center of the stage. And crying-good heavens crying, Lord help me that I don’t cry in front of everyone when I lose the words – because I made a mistake. No mistakes allowed! Just kidding-that’s life, but could we please not let it be in display in front of everyone? Thanks.

What is it that keeps you up at night? Do you have an insecurity that just won’t quit you? Tell me about it.

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3 comments

  1. I have named my self doubt Ethel. In my mind she is a granny prairie dog – knitted sweater vest w/matching cap and bifocals. This comical visual helps me to push her aside and refocus. I also apologize (a lot) when I do make a mistake which is fairly often. Somehow the sun still rises and the birds still chirp, it’s usually just my ego that causes me pain.

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