To say that I am ‘stressed’ is an understatement of massive proportions. I am whooped, overwhelmed, anxiety riddled, and just gosh dang tired.
What’s sad is, it hasn’t even begun yet.
It couldn’t come at a more inconvenient time for work to be just by-gosh overloaded. I’m sorta drowning right now. Because I’m drowning at work, very very little packing has been done for my move in well, 6 days. But as I finally walk out of my office at 6 pm after having been glued to my computer and phone since 430am, I’ve got nothing left in me. Brain no longer functioning. I’m tapped.
Dinner? Yeah, it’s a grab-and-go or order-in spread. Pack up a room? Now where do I start and what is a sharpie again? The running issue is “But I need that item right now I can’t pack it yet”. But I could. And I should. But I suppose I took 8 days off of work starting next week, so I guess I’ll just deal with it all then.
Good news though, we got our clearance to close-thank you Jesus! And for all of the prayer warriors out there that lifted your voices-Thank you!! Hubby’s oops overcome so we are good to go, as long as I don’t go out and buy a corvette before Wednesday, I’m golden.
I don’t mean to bemoan my woes right now so much, but I know some of you are following me through this journey and I feel compelled to keep you updated. In truth I may be stressed but I am, at the core of it, incredibly excited. It’s almost surreal…I’m going to be a homeowner again! This is a big deal for our family after all that we went through 7 years ago and lost every asset we had due to the circumstances of our severe recession. We’ve worked very very hard to come to this moment and are grateful, relieved, excited, and blessed beyond measure to be where we are today. I couldn’t be more thankful than I am right now. I have a job that I love, surrounded by some truly amazing people, and while I am drowning I am fulfilled to be making a difference. Because I am, in my own way. I don’t take that for granted and I’m proud of myself for my accomplishments. That’s important-do what you love, love what you do, work hard, give back, support others, and be humble- and yes, have pride.
So here’s to the next chapter in my life. I’ve worked very hard, I’ve made some great progress, I’m taking a major leap, and I will pass through this storm refreshed by the rain. I just know it. The stress is only temporary-I just have to keep telling myself that.