That image shows a 10 am cup of joe and I assure you it’s 6am as I write. It’s Thursday, that feels like a Friday, but I wish it were Tuesday because I need more days, and well ahh-Thursday it is then.
This week is filled with massive to do lists-mostly development work. I don’t feel quite as near to tears this week as I did last week, so there’s a start.
I am very excited I get to have dinner tonight with a few of my old colleagues from out of town who are here for meetings this week. I love that they shot me a text that said ‘hey girl get your boogy over here and let’s catch up.’ Many of the pals from the office have said the office has lost its spirit since I left and it just hasn’t been the same. Part of me is really touched that I had such an impact on folks and bringing them together, part of me is happy that they miss me and stay in touch, but part of me is sad that they lost the something when I left that I tried very hard to cultivate and nurture when I was there. The office morale and people-to-people connection. I’m good at that – never knew until I was challenged with the task. “Transplant all of these displaced departments together into a new building” they said. I saw that bringing them together, especially as nerves and morale were so low-having been dealing with the pending acquisition for over a year -was mission critical. No one knew what was happening or to whom or when an axe would fall. That’s cause for high stress for sure.
I took it upon myself as a priority to make the office feel like a home and enforce that each person was important and positioned an environment that would forge new friendships with each other. Of all of my responsibilities and accomplishments this was the one I was most proud of. I brought people together, made them feel welcome and safe, and generally made their day job a bit less sucky. It was never the task that was assigned to me – I just did it because I knew it needed to be done. I was so effective the executives took serious note of the shift-and these guys weren’t even in this office. London, Canada and New Jersey, but apparently word spread. And productivity went UP. Who knew.
See, just one little ol’ person can make a big impact.
I love my job now, and don’t get me wrong I love working from home immensely! But my colleagues are all over the globe, my team all over the states. I try very hard to make connections through IM and phone calls, but I do miss the face to face camaraderie too. I think that’s why I’m so excited to ship out the personalized gifts I got for each person on my team this week. It’s not to buy their friendship-it’s to make a tangible connection to the people I’ve grown to care about and who have so amazingly supported me as I’ve grown and learned and struggled. (Still struggling, obviously-this is really complex shtuff). It’s my way of saying thank you and it makes me happy. Giving thoughtful gifts makes me happy. You know how you feel at Christmas time when you are all anxious and excited about the perfect present you bought your loved one? That’s what it feels like. It’s making a difference in my morale-which is not low by any means but I am stressed that I’m struggling.
So off I go into my office to tackle some more learning and hoping the light bulb comes on a little brighter today.
Whatever you’re knee-deep into at work or at home, have a great Thursday y’all! And don’t forget to pay it forward today if you see an opportunity. 😉